First words from "Lived Through the Were" by Scott McLean

"Lived Through the Were" by Scott McLean
written on Monday, October 14, 2013
unedited

Past tense together
is better than today's weather

(I have a whole page
I'll publish it later

Okay, I realize this part rhymes
but hmm...inside the parentheses
will disappear like an alligator)

The part in parentheses was new when
I put this here.

It's only the first two lines and title
before "I have" that was unedited
but pretty much everything is pristine
as modern progress or whatever
is the possessive of it's perpendicular

perhaps from a future five minutes only
in front of right now
anthology of poetry
named misspell I
while in summer love

I edited this part (after "later")
and I'm not sorry

Scott McLean "It's all your fault" original

 

Scott McLean: vocals, guitar, songwriter

I released this song 2 years ago on Friday, September 2, 2011 on my blog Fast Food Yummy because I didn't have a music website or music blog of my own at that time. I'm very happy with this song, and it's a webcam recording/video.

I tried to post it here now but it wouldn't load on here for some reason. You can listen on Fast Food Yummy if you would like to hear it. Thank you.

Also on Fast Food Yummy, here is what I wrote about this song on Saturday, September 3, 2011:
I can't really explain how I decided to write the song, released here last time. It's not about any specific relationship and there's not much more I can think of at the moment to describe the song.

"Turn Off Time" poem/song was from November 12, 2012. There's no music yet. It's possible I'll leave it as a poem or lyrics unless we get a 'serious' end-times prophecy right away and then I'll get to it. However, I'd rather just sing it and see what I can come up with. 

Scott McLean "Turn Off Time"

Turn Off Time
By Scott McLean

They’ve been waiting for the end
Could it be they’ll just have to pretend
Thinking like they’re on dope
Like thinking like they’re on dope were a religion

Like thinking way too damned much
Like liking panic stricken silhouettes
The walls of their minds
Are about to go up blocking the vision thing

This is only the beginning of the end of the world
But lately as some of us know it, the end of love
Has begun to lurch in the not-too-distant background
Will we ever be on the mend, especially if it’s really not the end?

Will they ever let us go back to being? Being who we are?
Or are they bent on turning off time?
Or do they only want to turn off rational minds?
If it were up to me, I’d never use my ears to take in all their fears

Their fantasy of fears is what a lot of people are living for
And they’ll be disappointed if the world doesn’t reach the end
If nothing can end it all and time marches on
They’ll take a few minutes to stretch and yawn

Then get back to figuring out when something or someone will turn off time
And if all else fails, and the planet doesn’t go away, they’ll just go back do doing
Doing what they do best, which is withdraw from reality, and pretend
And that really turns me off

Foreveress of the Topmost Universe

    Photo by Scott McLean 
    Title: "Foreveress of the Topmost Universe"

"LAYERS AND LAYERS" by Scott McLean

"LAYERS AND LAYERS" by Scott McLean

Photo taken on Friday morning, March 15, 2013

This goes with my Nonexistent Reality song releases.

"Four" by Scott McLean

"Four"
By Scott McLean

I reversed the inversion
of a reversal and was walking
on all fours, you were on the other
end of the dimension with your version
of a cover of a reality music
and all i wanted to do was bark
but i never landed on any wrong notes
speaking of rhymes and things
get a load of the afterlife votes
what a layered liftoff
really spectacular views for free
in the minutes beyond above the city smog
Forget about all the exit polls
they are as trustworthy as much as modern disaster relief
relief orgs don't let people down, people do
If I go much higher with the god's eye view thing
I'll only have clouds to talk to
And they don't have all that much to say
Reverse the inversion
of the reversal? I'll do it on the flipside
and keep my eyes open for the fourth dimension
where everything is okay
because people aren't there -
and therefore can't get in my way.

written by Scott McLean in the morning of October 31, 2012, which of course was yesterday morning, around 10:30 am to 11:00 am and it's going to be free-verse poetry/prose and song lyrics or both.  I refer to many different parts of what we deal with in the world and mesh it with strange paranormal-type stuff. Before I typed in these words off the paper I wrote these lyrics/poem on with blue-ink pen, I typed in at the top "(Dimension) FourEver" but I decided to leave the title "Four" which was my original title which I named after I wrote the lyrics in pen but the same morning. "(Dimension) FourEver" also will be one of my songs.

I tried not to edit or change anything in "Four" including mistakes because what seems like mistakes could mean something that I'm getting from another dimension or a nonexistent reality, or only real in our imagination or something.  "Four" refers to a fourth dimension and a dog. Words/lyrics are influenced by some of my other works and refer to them, and weave in something (too) real to make it more confusing and unusual.

I was inspired by my own songs and my artwork (much is not made public/not yet released and also some unfinished),also inspired by my thinking about politics, the song "Been Away Too Long" by Soundgarden which was on the radio and then I started writing, and of course Emily Dickinson poetry, although I haven't been reading it lately.  

Water Clean by Scott McLean Protest/Punk song lyrics

Water Clean
by Scott McLean
lyrics

I ran the water
straight through from the altar
hope me doesn't falter
back up to the nature
closing in on the future
heard the end's a rumor
one I'd rather disregard
coz prophets are severe & hard
I'm a humans member
not carrying my human card

must it really come to this
emotions stay in bed
they want the world on their strings
to do their childish tricks
and compete with the other jerks
for power, money, and all the perks

I walked for cover
deep into her undetected
pray my soul is not reflected
we'll marry high in a cloud
where tranquility is oh so-o-o loud
whispered through clatter 'n' crashing
sounds of downpour smacking the ground
did you know it's rainier
and more water's in the cods
some praise, other's blame
one of their most feared or favored gods
I'm a humans member
not carrying my human card

must it really come to this
emotions stay in bed
they want the world on strings
use beings coz they're selfish dicks
who want faith in them
for all power, money, and perks
they're the biggest jerks

May water from
sky to ground
from nature's God
cover us up and down
water clean at the speed of downtown
(let's) work as fast at being nice
as working for the money
and the human price

Scott McLean "Water Clean" written on Saturday, October 20, 2012 and published here the same day Saturday, October 20, 2012 at around 3:30 pm on www.nonexistentreality.blogspot.com .  I wrote this song about three and a half hours before publishing it here, finishing about 12:15 pm, and then made some small changes before publishing the song lyrics here. 

"Popless at the Co-op/The Auto Tune" and my thinking

The last song was supposed to have a happy tune and lyrics.  I wanted to keep it light and enjoyable, but it also had a funny sense to it and it's short, has words that don't make perfect sense, and that's funny, yet it does bring back memories of what we felt at sometime in our lives.  It can have more than one meaning, for example my words "half way through" (could mean) something we're dealing with and we want time to go faster.  "Popless" also had two meanings since it's not really Pop, it's Country, and I looked for some soda pop at that Co-op but they didn't have that soda pop.  My song title is "Popless at the Co-op/The Auto Tune" but those words aren't in the song. 

I couldn't even tell who might sing such a song because while the lyrics sound like the driver singing to someone, perhaps to his or her kids, but after I listened to the song several times, I thought maybe sounds like what a child might sing to his or her parents, like a joke because they are tired of a long driving trip.

Everyone has been a child before they were older, so maybe it's like the poet in me trying to state something that is common in what most of us did, thought, and felt when we were children on a car trip. Or maybe the song is just a short song about nothing.  But I like it.

Scott McLean "Popless at the Co-op/The Auto Tune" - country

Grunge

"If You Want" (lyrics) by Scott McLean

"If You Want" (lyrics) by Scott McLean
written and released/published on Monday, July 16, 2012

If you want
n' i know you do
If you like
you won't be true
to color, food
or factory wood
donut, pizza
coffee house
speak in shouts
i'll be a mouse
loyal foil
never heard of it?
hang on to betrayal
'sa really good way to feel
cartoon balloon
sliver of the moon
stick out your tongue
lemonheads not made in the sun
it's hot, you're not
but i'll hose you off
with a squirt gun
cough, cough
we're in elliptical orbits
my face is to the fun
your happiness is asleep
in the black of night
walking on the beach
strolling 'round the lake
setting my mouth
for every other flavor
in unpredictable fashion
if you want
n' it's your driving force
if you like
we can go by horse
to reach the land
of if you want
'n if you want
we can leave today
'n every day
if you want
i'll even pay
'cos when you want
to be with me
is what i like
if you want
i want
and that want
is by you 'n me
if we want
if we want
for us
real life love
from fantasy.

This song was written very early this morning (according to the clock I was looking at between 5:15 am and 5:35 am) and it takes the form of poetry with no particular rules, except I do rhyme sometimes. 

I think this could almost be a radio single, however it's not a smooth and happy love song all the way along, though it ends up that way.  I like songs that show some of the difficulties in relationships.  Oftentimes 'likes' change and that's why in the beginning it goes "If you like, you won't be true."  I meant true to what you like, but also it's understood that can change a relationship, causing two lovers to grow apart.

When I think about the songs I've created/recorded and put here, I wonder if people might like to hear a more positive and uplifting song, yet one that is still like real life.  That's the reason for these lyrics.  I'm influenced and inspired by many people.  To the recent comment, thank you very much and I'm happy to know you.  Kind words inspire and encourage me to write songs and that's the main reason I wrote the lyrics for "If You Want" in such a spontaneous way today. 

"Way, Way Out There in the I's Mind" by Scott McLean, song title Saturday, July 14, 2012 7:22 AM

by Scott McLean, written Saturday, April 7, 2012, finished around 3:31 PM

Listening to mother
with one ear
Metallica with the other
did you think behind
my divided attention
was a lost universe
separated by a mirror

drink whatever
to raise your hair
think whenever
sort out this nightmare
civilization deciphered
if i wrote on my bedroom walls
in symbols about lightning
and thunder from whence
places and times should never grow

timeline, shoot the gap
cars darting by so fast
just more proof (of meaning)
this world is not a waste
n' hey, hey day lobbyists
n' act like barnacles

dance to the speed bumps
we're as smooth as disco
just like smoothie, mixed up
but this far-flung, smack dab
in the middle of mankind
crisscrossing timeline, tucked
away inside coming out whenever
is good for you, or it's the worst
food for thought you can ever eat

next time you're pretending
to look away and not be
destroyed by the sight
don't forget the eyesore
has no power in the shower
sh-sh-sh-out!

close the mind now
n' don't swear
you are here!


Notes: Scott McLean is the owner of this song and these lyrics.
Expect this song to be some kind of strange, quirky prog-rock grunge, or maybe not, it's just for me to decide.  I named the song today, though the lyrics were written on April 7, 2012. 

Scott McLean "Honestly" - Grunge/Musical

    Scott McLean - "Honestly"

This recording was what I was doing about an hour ago (around 1 AM Friday, April 20, 2012)...  and it was much more interesting to do my own Grunge Musical (song) than to continue looking at dating profiles.  Maybe I'll see how frustration of Internet dating (silly stuff alright) can continue to inspire me to new singing heights, or an all-time emotional low.  In another 80 years, this song also could be part of a period piece, directed by Madonna?  Well no, but perhaps the Queen of Pop of 2092. Sorry I can't see that far into the future and of course I won't be around then, so no comment.  Damn, I need a real date! Joking. I need two, three, or a thousand.  And make up for lost time. Just wait til the girls all over this world, and maybe others, know who I am. Well, then they can let me know.  haha

This was going to be released right here on April 20, 2012, but I decided to wait and post this later.  Here it is May 19, 2012 and finally I'm posting this song.  It's still fresh.

Nonexistent Reality "Barely Wait 'til Jelly" - new song

     Nonexistent Reality - "Barely Wait 'til Jelly"

     by Scott McLean

I used the word "June" in this song because one of my internet friends can't wait until June.  She is an influence and other influences are Echo & The Bunnymen, Nirvana, Iggy and The Stooges and more bands and singers. 

Photo by Scott McLean

Nonexistent Reality "Tick" (new song - Grunge)

     Nonexistent Reality - "Tick"

     by Scott McLean

This song was created in February 2012 and like many of my songs, before this song I got a basic tune going,  a melody, and some lyrics, but then I came up with much of the lyrics and ideas, song changes, etc. while I was singing.  That long, funny part in the song is the word "tick" stretched out "tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiick" (I didn't count how long that was) and hopefully the silly ending reminds us that grunge has a sense of humor.

Scott McLean "Can't Stay" (2011 - new song) released March 27, 2012

Scott McLean - Singer, songwriter

Song title:  "Can't Stay"

This song is not about my current situation, and I don't talk this way.  It's just a song and it's intended as entertainment, not for scrutiny of each word.  That's why I put "vocal styling and singing as acting" in the Labels (below).  I started to release my songs last year on Fast Food Yummy because I didn't have my a website or blog to post my own songs.  

It's important to know that many songs by other solo artists and bands are not about the singer or songwriters and the songs also could be written in a variety of ways, during the time of singing or playing guitar, or just some words that sound good together.  But I keep reading comments -- for example, comments below videos of other artists' songs on YouTube -- that listeners think the singer really went through some hard times or something, and my thoughts are maybe, and maybe not.  

They could be writing about relationships they have observed or like a character in a novel, movie, or TV show, the song may represent a combination of characteristics of several people.  Some songs are probably about some person that the singer/songwriter knows (or knew) and they don't sing 'he' and 'him' or 'she' and 'her' but instead sing 'I' and 'me'.  

So then, someone might say that kind of singing is like acting.  Of course, most of us have past relationships too, and while we may be nothing like the character a song appears to be about, we can use our past experiences to figure out how we want to sing the song in a believable way to make it interesting for listeners.  I hope this makes sense.  While this is a blog, please do not assume that I write songs only about myself unless I say so, because like most songwriters/singers/musicians, I want to be creative and come up with something interesting, maybe somewhat different, and see what happens.  

I'm going to share more of my thinking about music and songs, though someone could interview me and maybe I would even answer questions.  

Note: This song was originally scheduled to be released on November 15, 2011 but didn't come out on that date, so it's finally being released now. 

"Have a lot of Fun" by Scott McLean

So far, these are the lyrics and if the song ever gets finished, then I'll say so. But shouldn't I do it on keyboard? Then of course after I do a nice version I'll do a cover of my own song, but I'll scream in a high-pitched voice, Scott McLean  is my favorite pop star, and put it on YouTube.  Yes, I am just making a joke about pop stars who put their names in songs.  By the way, I'm not any other Scott McLean, I'm this one.  Ok here are the lyrics for my song:

"Have a lot of Fun"
by Scott McLean

Overdo it
no don't do it
wait, wait no, girl
it's a lot of fun
overdo it
and come 'ere on the run
no, wait
don't overdo it
your mama said it's a loaded gun
--and I know what she means!
stay there in your scene

there's something to be said
for places that are dead
whatever you can afford
always makes you bored

don't do it
don't have any fun
then if you wanna be alone
listen to the dial tone
or get me on the line
you're sure to feel jus' fine

to know love
sow love
it's growing
every spring
the summer comes
the heat is warm
but that's what
makes us tall inside

overdo it
have a lot of fun
no, wait
don't overdo it
your mama said
it's a loaded gun
your mama said it,
though, so, you know!

OVERDO IT
have a lot of fun
OVERDO IT
have a lot of fun
repeat 3 million times (i'm joking, just repeat until you're tired of it and wanna listen to the next pop song)

Note: By the way, don't overdo it.  This is just a song and that's all.  I wrote this on paper in a Jack in the Box parking lot after buying iced coffee (before starting to drink it) but the idea came to me while I was still in the drive-thru, which is when I wrote down the song title, and in the drive-thru, I was listening to other pop songs on the radio that also repeat way too much, but that's OK because I was having fun.  

Nonexistent Reality: A Desperate Cry for Kelp

Nonexistent Reality "A Desperate Cry for Kelp"

Scott McLean - song composer, guitar, vocals, improv and strange ideas

Nonexistent Reality/Scott McLean "Soul" - new song (alternative blues rock)

Nonexistent Reality: 

Song title:  "Soul" by Scott McLean

Scott McLean - vocals, guitar, songwriter, experimental improv and ideas

My influences for this song include experimental, folk, folk-rock, blues, grunge, proto-grunge. With much respect to these musicians and singers, they include Bob Dylan, Janis Joplin, Neil Young, Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers, ZZ Top, Staind, Nirvana, Kurt Cobain, Eddie Vedder, Pearl Jam, Nuncyspungen, Sonic Youth, Dinosaur Jr., Captain Beefheart/Don Van Vliet, U.S. Maple, Al Johnson,  Mick Jagger, The Rolling Stones, David Bowie, Iggy Pop & The Stooges, and many more.  

Also, my thinking about (what is) the soul and what inspires me to do a song like this one, radio talk-show guests such as Steve Quayle and Katherine Albrecht, and others.  I like the radio show Coast to Coast AM with George Noory.  My friends and family, ministers, pastors, and the many good people in churches I've attended or visited also influenced my thinking.  The song pushes the limits and is left open to interpretation.  This isn't a religious song but it's just to get people thinking about what the soul is and what are we on the inside and after this life.  This song is NOT a reference to anyone who recently passed away and besides, I created this song and had planned to publish it almost two weeks ago on February 1, 2012 but I am just publishing it here now.

Nonexistent Reality "Flavor Wave" - new song

Nonexistent Reality - "Flavor Wave" 

Scott McLean - Singer, created this song and video

    Photo by F.                                                                                                      

Nonexistent Reality - "Side Salad" new song/Grunge (this recording was done today)

Nonexistent Reality  "Side Salad"

Scott McLean - singer, songwriter

It's basically about a young woman/girl who puts everything and all importance on her physical looks and also a guy who feels unhappy about his life.  The bad grammar in the lyrics is on purpose, and I think it fits well with grunge, especially The Raw Sound which is what I call raw grunge. I named the song "Side Salad" because Mom told me by phone today that I should eat salad instead of fries. 

Scott McLean "Just Go On" original/new (recorded in October, 2011)

"Just Go On"

Scott McLean - Singer, songwriter, improv ideas and vocal style 

I'm sorry there was a problem and the video was supposed to be blogged on my other blog.  When I working with it under share I thought it was switched over to the other blog but it wasn't and so I corrected it.

Lyrics

I have seen song names or album track names released by bands before the song or album is released. That's great, but I go one step ahead of them.  Here are the lyrics I wrote tonight when I was at a grocery store in the parking lot waiting for it to stop raining and wondering how to walk and avoid some of the puddles.  So then, I'm inspired by puddles and rain.  I don't know when this will be released as a song and I'm not in any hurry put it out. Sometimes I write the lyrics before I come up with a melody, start singing or playing it on acoustic guitar, though I'm writing other songs too, and mostly I just start singing.  But I don't know what the song with these lyrics will sound like.  Maybe it will be a grunge song, but there's no way to know for sure.  However, it does show I can write quickly and just sit down with a pen and paper anywhere and any time of day or night.  This was written between 9:25 pm and 9:42 pm (17 minutes) on Thursday December 29, 2011.


Nonexistent Reality
“Puddle breath”
 by Scott McLean

You wound up in misery
not the seminary
do i stand corrected?
i've got another come back
line every time

much more bland in vision
the department will never
get out of the dog house
for writing him out of history

you should be the focus
of nagging allegations
whenever you open your computer
and don't forget your face for photoshopping

pledge -- lawmaking's on the ledge
issue wedge -- beings take it some more
talk the way your grandma did
the way she felt the day
you were born, 30 years after
the great depression, the way
she felt when she would say
she felt that very day
she was no longer happy n' gay
it was long ago
and still is

you wound up smelling
like a pacific northwest late afternoon
on the greyest overcast bucket full
of pea soup collecting in the backyard
you parked your face
in the supermarket parking lot
lots of times before
never reached the door
puddle breath here's tube of toothpaste
here's your photoshopped imagination
puddle breath in moss and slugs your pledge

to make the life
of yours an issue wedge
so in misery we
may all connect!
puddle breath
the original
the one and only
did living your way
falling into
the falling down
watching the clouds
cry on you to
ease the pain the
afternoon brings
the rain is there for you.

Nonexistent Reality/Scott McLean "Leaves" - new song release

Nonexistent Reality/Scott McLean "Leaves"

Scott McLean - singer, songwriter

The song was written and recorded about two weeks ago. I thought about recording it again and changing some of the lyrics but decided against it because this is my style, it's raw and has some magnificent flaws.

Nonexistent Reality "Corners" - new Gothic/Grunge song

Nonexistent Reality "Corners" 

 Scott McLean - singer, songwriter

"Dolly" (Dollie) - background vocals (unexpectedly barking from another room)

More about the song "Lower"

Some politicians and government officials are doing a good job.  The song "Lower" (below this post) is about those politicians and government officials who are dishonest, tell lies, and try to gain support for wars, for invasion of our privacy, and even to take away our rights and our freedom.    It's also about anyone else who lies frequently and with the goal of being 'higher' than the rest of us.  I'm not saying everyone is telling lots of lies, but far too many people.  I feel it's better not to have much and be able to live with myself.  I'm not perfect but I'm a 'good fit' for Grunge and the raw-sounding songs.

Nonexistent Reality/Scott McLean - "Lower" (new song, Grunge/raw-raw hard rawcapella)

Scott McLean - singer, songwriter, ideas/deep thinking

I just wrote this song about an hour ago.  It's the first recording and I'll probably add to it someday.  Please read the labels.  I use the word 'you' but of course

this song is not about you, the listener, it's about politicians and government officials

and  and others who lie a lot to gain riches, power, and/or fame, and they think they are better than

or 'higher' than most of us but in the end they are 'lower' or maybe that's after the end of this life, when they are lower.  I'm not sure, I'm just thinking on this subject which I find to be quite interesting.

This isn't a religious song about heaven and hell, but maybe it should be, right?  The song is short

and that's like an analogy to the amount of time the liars get to be 'higher' in comparison to 

forever or at least when compared with how long the universe has existed.

Nonexistent Reality - "The Nonexistent Reality" (original song/improv, new)

Nonexistent Reality:  Scott McLean - vocals, guitar, songwriting, improv ideas/thinking

"The Nonexistent Reality"

1. chaos on mynd borders

2. am i like u

3. race from evil a gag by the unsenatesatives

This song is recorded today Saturday December 3  2011 and I wrote it at the same time so it's an improv song/acoustic guitar instrumental.  I don't care about trying to achieve perfection because my main style is rough  grunge with a country and folk sound to some songs, somewhat prog and medieval sounding at times, and one of my goals is to promote freedom in music.  I hope musicians, singers, songwriters, and writers will stand up for freedom of speech and freedom of expression in music, and some people would say they need to do this in the music business.  At this time, however, I'm not making any money in music or writing. One of my goals is to do something interesting and different than what has already been done.  

In case you didn't know this, I like to put two words together for added effect.  It's not a misspelling, it's on purpose. You might also be able to find words in a song title that spell something backwards, but I'll try to keep it to a minimum, which isn't to say that I'll become a minimalist composer, though that would be fun.  

Scott McLean "Borshchorus (Be Free Grunge Spiritual)" - New/original song - Don't worry, this won't turn into a YouTube pop star video, but I have the same freedom

Scott McLean - singer, songwriter